Meme - Do The Time Warp!

I honestly don’t know why the fuck I thought doing this would be a good idea
AND THEN I FUCKING DID THIS sta.sh/0xtpqynhhhw THIS IS NOT OK OTL

White shirt (7-10) To be honest I don’t remember much about my childhood, climbing some trees, playing around with my brother that we were Arcanine or Rapidash, meh… For some reason I don’t really know I never fit with the other kids, and since the very beginning of my academic life they made fun of me and actually gave me a complex over my looks OTL Sometimes I went to the teachers when they bullied me but most of the time I just took it all or yelled back, and then my only friend betrayed me to be part of the “popular girls” because she was tired of being a “nobody” because of me, fuck you. I loved animals quite a lot (as every kid I guess) and I said I wanted to be a vet LOL. Since young I was very intelligent, always surprising m teachers and even skipping a grade and artistic, too bad I had no one to share that with.

White-Blue shirt (11-14) I entered a dance school when I was 9, the teacher said I was very good catching rhythm and fitting dance moves in the music so I quickly advanced trough grades until I reached the Silver level and I couldn’t advance more because Gold level was for 17 or older XDU. Dancing was my passion (and such a great exercise!) I had classes from Monday to Saturday from 2 to 6, yup full schedule guys. Contemporary was awesome, I learned to do many tricks and my fav role ever was when played as a black crow during my third Grand Festival. Ballet was hard as hell, I never really danced “en point” but at least we danced an simple version of lake of swans and I got to do a simple Pas de deux with a cute dude once//shot. I miss dance school so badly, no matter how much I try to convince myself I don’t of course I do OTL <3 School wise everything was fucking horrible, 7th grade was hell and I was still friendless for a couple more of years until I met this awesome person MasahiroGarnet in 9th grade . Also I got bracers FML OTL it hurt, I felt ugly and everyone picked on me even more OTL OTL OTL.

Beige shirt (15/16) Having more responsibilities as a beige shirt I had to give up dance school since my classes clashed and homework was too much, it breaks my heart up to today but I focused on my classes, no time for sulking and crying. Things were better these years because since I was the most intelligent the jerks of my class needed me to fix problems and get shit done so I asked for money or stuff in exchange, then I got chosen as class representative and part of the student council so I had power over certain extra-curricular activities and decisions with the teachers. And if that wasn’t enough power for me, by liking military class and taking it seriously unlike others, I got myself the position of military leader (and here comes my liking to the the black gloves, part of my official uniform now) my classmates and juniors had to do as I said or I could easily make them run a few laps or do push-ups~ I’m pretty sure they hated me and talked behind my back but I just did my job right without leaving them lazing around. I was pretty much a tyrant but I was good at it and I loved it, having all that power is certainly something I miss and quite possibly the reason why senior year was the best thing for me.

University IUTV (17-19) Not much has changed, I’m still pale as ever, short as ever, my clothes are pretty much the same (I actually wear the same as in the third drawing when I’m home, still attached to my gloves, and for some reason boobs my silver jacket doesn’t fit me anymore :I that’s sad, it’s so pretty OTL….)I am currently on second year of university, as always (dance classes, English/italian course, SCHOOL) I’m the youngest in my class and they don’t miss the chance to make fun of me with that. I think I’m reverting back to my childhood self shy, quiet, sad, distrusting/avoiding everyone and idk if it’s for the age/growing up thing or the fact that since senior year to now I lost so much power and prestige, but I feel pretty damn useless and idk what am I doing/where am I going with my life, thankfully this time I have some very awesome friends with me, both IRL and online. Every day I keep trying to run away from the cruel truth I want to deny, you know, that kind of truth/flaw you don’t want to face but you just keep hearing it from friends and family? Yeah: I am pretty much a useless spoiled little brat. I missed high school when I graduated, but damn… right now what would I give to be 13 or 16 again OTL

Can I just say that I cried various times while drawing/writing this because… I am proud of each of my younger selves, I overcame solitude and some bullying, I danced in places all over the country and participated in a few grand festivals and tv programs and I became the leader of over 300 students…

And what am I now?
Who am I now?
Will I be proud of this “me” in the future?
Because right now I’m not.

EDIT: updated!

Things do get better, in these ast years I've learned A LOT and went trough A LOT but boy I'm pretty sure I'm happier than when I did this and pretty content with my life
also, when opeing the old doc I noticed I had drew some of my cats for each stage, dunno why I took them out at last minute, perhaps I wasn't convinced of how they looked but LOL YOLO I have gotten better (and aahhh looking at the lil drawing of vagabundo breaks my heart...)

University UNIMAR (present-21) So here I am, finally stuidying the carreer I've wanted to since last year of blue shirt practically, and I LOVE it <3 After finishing my TSU I moved to another state (an island actually) and I started a new and proper career: Modern Languages, currently I'm halfway trough, enjoying some Italian and dealing with some French, grades are good, living on my own is good but most of all the university and my classmates are fantastic <3 met some awesome new people, got some new crushes, live right with one of my best friends, and I'm taking a french course. Got a temporay job as portuguese teacher a while ago, tried to rejoin a Dance school (tho the uni schedule sadly didn't allow so for long...) and did somedrawing/graphi design courses. Appearance-wise I'll forever be pale and short but I cut my hair because of the hotness here and beaches, started to really like leggings and sandals and using some make up and taking more care of myself,mostly thanks to fashionista friend <3 but also because I do wanna look good, specially when we go out to party~ Sure not everything is rainbows and sunshine I do have my bad moments and I'm sort of seeing a  therapist for that but seriously, I'm just here chillin' and livin' la vida.